Well, I am going to attempt this lovely endeavor again. I find lately that I have very little discipline when it comes to most things. Not a great thing to discover about yourself.
It all came up when I decided to do the master cleanse, and I did it...for less than 12 hours. I just couldn't do the maple syrup/cayenne pepper thing. Anyway, I admitted this to myself that this cleanse was more about shrinking in size than colon health and decided that, perhaps, I-all of me-not just my ass-would benefit from some good old-fashioned exercise and yoga.
I have a admitted to myself that I am more of a French women don't get fat type. Meaning-everything in moderation and just be mindful of what you put into your mouth and how often you move your butt. Pretty simple. And nothing to be ashamed of. I am not a cleanse type or a marathon type or deny yourself life's pleasures type in the name of being thin. I am not a backpacking and stay in hostels type either. I am not a beer girl or a sports girl or a camping girl.
I find its kind of nice to admit what you are not as well as what you are. Own all of it.
Otherwise, life is good. The sun is out in LA. There are hummingbirds in my garden. Auditioning for a play tonight. Oh, for the actors who will appreciate this-a legit agent is starting to send me out-whoopee!
more later
28 February 2008
27 January 2008
The First
This is my first attempt at this sort of thing. In fact, I am not entirely sure why I am doing it. Seems sort of silly. Anyway, here I am filling a need of mine. A sutra is, according to Deepak Chopra in The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire:
...a mantra that has meaning. The mantra itself has no meaning. It's just a vibration, a sound. It becomes a sutra when there is an intention coded on the sound. The word sutra is a Sanskrit word, related to the Latin noun sutura, which is the base of the English word suture, meaning "to join together by sewing." So a sutra is acutally a stitch on the soul, and a stitch is one of intention.
So I have chosen to find my sutra and this is one of the ways in which I intend to do that. Why out loud or in the open like this? Well, I am an actor and we all need witnesses.
I never thought I would be here-living in the San Fernando Valley, temping and possibly going full-time at at a company whose role in this world I am not entirely clear on, and trying to break into the acting business during the writer's strike. All in all, I have to say, my timing skills lack something, something-not sure what it is or I wouldn't need it!
It occurs to me that I am writing to get focused -on my path and on what I think about things. I haven't ever really owned how I feel-at least not for a long time. I have always admired those who are bold and brave-actually saying what they believe in and what they think about and what they know to be true-at least at that moment. How can one not be uncertain of one's choices?
Gosh, big question. Not one I am proud to have.
Night.
...a mantra that has meaning. The mantra itself has no meaning. It's just a vibration, a sound. It becomes a sutra when there is an intention coded on the sound. The word sutra is a Sanskrit word, related to the Latin noun sutura, which is the base of the English word suture, meaning "to join together by sewing." So a sutra is acutally a stitch on the soul, and a stitch is one of intention.
So I have chosen to find my sutra and this is one of the ways in which I intend to do that. Why out loud or in the open like this? Well, I am an actor and we all need witnesses.
I never thought I would be here-living in the San Fernando Valley, temping and possibly going full-time at at a company whose role in this world I am not entirely clear on, and trying to break into the acting business during the writer's strike. All in all, I have to say, my timing skills lack something, something-not sure what it is or I wouldn't need it!
It occurs to me that I am writing to get focused -on my path and on what I think about things. I haven't ever really owned how I feel-at least not for a long time. I have always admired those who are bold and brave-actually saying what they believe in and what they think about and what they know to be true-at least at that moment. How can one not be uncertain of one's choices?
Gosh, big question. Not one I am proud to have.
Night.
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